You know, I was thinking of telling someone who wants to apply to some universities that he should maintain his school grades bla bla bla, try to always get A, don't slack off etc.
Monday, May 23, 2011
Old Rant
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Cook
Dear Khai,
Monday, May 16, 2011
Epiphany
It's 5 in the morning. Gosh.
Thursday, May 12, 2011
ex-perimental
Saturday, May 07, 2011
Motivational Song and Words of the Month
stop crying, being a slut, grow up, face the reality, else you will end up being nobody..
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Cibai
Friday, May 06, 2011
O Fortuna
I am very impressed by the exaggerated gesture at the beginning of the video. The first thing that came to my mind was, "Wow, 'we' can do this during a protest or something".
Always have a penchant for hyperboles in musical performance. I thought instead of shouting slogans, we could just sing. It might not be the most effective way of protest, but it'd be so much more fun, in my very very humble opinion.
Imagine some 30 people gather in front of Kompleks Kerajaan (A/B/C/D/E) in Putrajaya and sing in this manner. I doubt it'd be legally dangerous to do so....not like we have provisions against noise pollution in our law....though it may come under "illegal assembly"....haiya who cares la. (omg, i'm no naive, lol.
Or do it when there will be a by-election. Najib/Muhiyuddin walking around here and there shaking hands with people, then 30 people start singing with vivid facial expressions (七情上面). Could just make news headlines.
I think I can really be a fan of behaviourial art. I must participate in a demonstration some time, else my life is so fucking boring and I have nothing to put in my resume.
Wednesday, May 04, 2011
Again...
Another interview.
Problem is I will be rushing another application on same day. (procrastinate la. When so much time you don't want to work on the application, emo what emo....padan muka.)WHY AHhhhh!!!!! Why I can't I just study STPM and get good results and want to become a doctor??!??!?!??!?!!
Tuesday, May 03, 2011
Good Night
都不知道要怎样开始写。
已经断断续续的消极,低沉一段时间了。要讲压力,又好像不是。我去那个Physics camp 够压力了。厉害的人一大堆,我一讲话就觉得自己很白痴,不过也不会像现在那么糟。感觉一回到家,人就很sien。很消极。
一直有自杀的念头。不过我又没有胆自杀的。>.<
那天跟我爸爸说我想自杀,他跟我讲“有时候人烦,会像死了一了百了。没有什么的。”
Walau A. 我妈妈也是。她只会叫我不要乱乱想。
我看过一下我要去看辅导师还是心理医生了啦。我觉得,我跟我父母谈等于没谈。而且我还觉得他们也是我烦恼+焦虑的一部分原因。等下,好像不是。我是觉得,haiz, zomok我这样没有用。我一想到以后“出社会”,walau A, 竞争激烈,适者生存这样....我就觉得,我还是现在就死死掉算了。不要等到20几岁才来....超没尊严的。
还有,如果我自杀的话,希望人家不好上报纸讲什么“没有啊,我今早看他出门还有说有笑”etc. 请不要这样insult my memory.
我现在很痛苦。
谢谢。
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Dysthymia: | Slight-Moderate |
Bipolar Disorder: | High-Moderate |
Cyclothymia: | High |
Seasonal Affective Disorder: | Slight |
Postpartum Depression: | N/A |
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