On My Brain Abnormalities

Not too long ago, I heard from a teacher, two in fact, or maybe three (>.<), that some of the teachers are dissatisfied with a few students, which (, naturally,) include me. According to one particular teacher who leaked the news, although I've got good grades so far, I'm not like the "top students" the school used to have.

I'm not implying that I'm better. If you know me well you would know other than having an above-average school grades, I really have nothing to boast about in school. Anyway, I confess that I have intended to become the "top-student-who-get-good-grades-but-never-respect-teachers" since I quitted A-levels and came back for STPM. In a way I wanted to prove that the school is just a bankrupt institution. Yes, I'm this vain. With that ambition, what followed was a series of conflicts with teachers, which earned me the bad reputation I have now.

Yesterday, I read that teenage antisocial behaviour is related to some form of brain abnormalities. In an experiment[1], the brain scans of teenagers with conduct disorders (CD)show less activity in the areas involved in processing emotions when they are shown images of angry, sad, and neutral faces. The researchers believed that the results may explain why teenagers with CD are insensitive to distress of others and to social signals of aggression.

This prompts me into thinking whether my "antisocial" behaviour as a biological root. I think I am the kind of person who attends to my own emotions much more than to the people around me. For example, if a teacher speaks of his opinion which I strongly disagree with, then it is likely of me to raise my hand and speak out. I think this usually happens to Ah Koi my Chemistry teacher, because he seems to have so many things to say in the class.
I know he's not particularly fond of me (read: doesn't really like me), because I'm arrogant, always-come-to-school-late, never-respect-teacher etc, but I do have my respect for him, for the fact that he teaches me chemistry.

Ah Koi is a teacher, but unfortunately, he's also part of the school administrative team. Usually he's the one who disciplines the form 6 students who come late for the morning assembly.That's fine by itself, but I really couldn't stand it when a teacher flaunts his power over a student. 权力的傲慢。What he usually does is to ask for reasons that we are late before asking us to do anything for disciplinary action. What he's given to is to say "no no no, no arguments" when he cannot counter the students. >.< I remember I once responded to that pet phrase with a "YES!" when I was in the heat of my temper. LOL.I made it clear to him that I have nothing against him in particular but the "system", to which he responded with a nod.

To be fair to him, I do see that he's helped some students out of their troubles, like one useless pengajian am teacher insisted on a group of students to write their R&D report in Malay, so one of the group member asked for his help to change to another teacher for their R&D supervision.

OMG, what a rubbish post.